Perspective

Sometimes life needs to be put into perspective. Last night I was reading the Ensign, and I got to an article about the humanitarian work that the church does, and some of it's special programs. It made me so grateful to live where I do in a developed country where I do not have to worry about the basic needs of life.

I do not have to worry daily about if the water I am drinking is disease and parasite free, I always have food to eat, and I have a clean nice home to live in. Sometimes I forget that some people spend everyday of their lives trying to get just these simple things. They don't work their whole lives to save up for that huge home, or that fancy car, or anything else, they simply work every day to keep their children from starving, or dying from one of many other causes.

I am just so grateful to have the things that I do and to have been born into a wonderful family, in a great country. I have been very blessed. :)

Lake Powell!

This last weekend I got to go to Lake Powell! It was really nice to just get away and spend some time away from work and the troubles of life. I just got to enjoy the sun and water, the second of which I really love and don't get to enjoy nearly enough. This was the first time that I have ever been to Lake Powell, and it is an amazingly beautiful place! I was afraid to take my camera because we were camping on the beach and there was just too much sand, so I don't really have pictures, but just the chance to see the beautiful place that heavenly father created was just awesome! We even got to visit some indian ruins, and hike up to their houses and actually go inside them, it was so interesting, seeing stuff like that is one of my favorite things, it is so interesting to me, so I really enjoyed that part of the trip. I finally got a tan, and a very nice one if I do say so myself, I haven't been this dark in years and it feels great! I am just hoping that I can make it last and not let it fade away completely too soon. And yes I should take some self portraits while I've got it to show it off, we'll see if I find the time and ambition haha.

The trip overall was good, and I am glad that I went. It was about like the denver trip as far as planning and treatment from friends, but this time it was what I was expecting, and I decided to just enjoy and not worry, and I succeeded in that for the most part. :)

I also get to go on another trip in a couple of weeks, I am going to Iowa to visit my parents, sister and brother-in-law, and meet the triplets! I am excited to go and see them and spend some time with my parents, I haven't seen them in about 6 months, and I miss them. I am so grateful for my parents, they are so kind to me. When I call them it is so wonderful to be able to talk to people that like me, and want to hear what I have to say. It is pretty rare anymore that I get to do that, the people that I spend most of mine time with now, don't seem to really like me, they just tolerate my presence, or at least that is how they make me feel. So I am very grateful when I get to talk to my parents and other good friends and feel that they love me and want me to be there or want to hear what I have to say, it is a good feeling!

So thank you to those who make me feel loved and wanted! I hope you know who you are! I love you all :)

I should clarify something...

Just so those of you who read this blog know, it is kinda my venting blog haha!!

Because of my current circumstances I sometimes need someplace to vent lol! So I hope that I don't seem too negative, like I said this is my place to share my feelings a little so that I can be more positive in real life! (at least I hope so anyway ;)

So hopefully all of you will give me a little break if I seem negative, but I try to share the positive and negative stuff. :)

Boating is AMAZING! Weekends sometimes are not...

On Thursday I FINALLY got to go boating!!! First time in about 2 years, and it was amazing!!! So fun, I was worried that I would have to relearn how to get up on the Wakeboard, but I was happy that I popped right up. Not so much with the surfboard though haha, it took me quite a few tries before I could get up, but it was really fun when I did! I hope that I get to try it again :) It was just so fun!!!!

I hope that I get to do more of it next week if I end up going to Lake Powell. That is if my friends ever give me any details... I am not sure if they just forget to tell me, if they just don't have anything planned haha, or if they don't want me to go... but I learned during the Denver trip that they don't like me to try and help make decisions, so I am just waiting to hear, we'll see if I get to go! I hope so, and I hope it is fun! :) I really really need someone that I can rely on though, I am kinda tired of this!

This weekend was not very amazing... unlike boating! :) Another blind date to add to my many many stories.. and a boring night at home. Although I did rent Last Song tonight, cute movie :)

Hopefully I will be at Powell next week!

Lovin the weather!

One of my favorite things ever is opening all the windows in the house right after it rains!!! Beautiful nice clean air that is cool and refreshing and fills my home! Love it!

My week...

This week started out great!

I had a great weekend starting out with a fun date with a fun guy on Friday, we went to dinner and then to the Weber County fair, we mostly just people watched, saw the ATV rodeo (very redneck, but fun haha :), and made a little fun of some of the crazy people. Then Caleb taught me to drive his sweet car! I don't really know how to drive a stick so he decided to teach me. It was a really awesome 1970's Mini Cooper (like one of the real ones from England) I freaking love Mini Coopers, so it was really exciting for me. I did a pretty good job too ;)

Then on Saturday there was a BBQ for all of my friends, even the married ones! I miss my married friends, and unlike some of my single friends I really still like hanging out with them, I just don't get to do it as often anymore. So it was great to see them and spend some time just laughing and talking. I love you guys!

After the BBQ some of us went and watched some UFC fights in our friends backyard, the whole time I was thinking "Why am I here? I hate watching people fight, this is not fun!" But it was fun to spend some time with the friends and do some thing different.

On Sunday there was church, it was a good day there, sometimes I have a hard time with my current ward because it seems like I am there forever, but this time the lessons were great and the day went by quick, which is good because I was of course alone (that part sucks) but it was still good. :)

Then we did the usual group hangout that night, and get this... we actually DIDN'T play volleyball or pingpong, I was amazed! That is all we ever do, and I am so sick of it haha! We played Scum instead, so it was great to laugh and do something different!

The rest of the week has not been so good, it has just been weird and frustrating. Work is good, just the same as always, some fun, some drama haha. Tuesday was kinda a rough day for me, but actually not as rough as I expected it might be. A certain someone got married that day, and knowing that I am not any closer to that than I was the day that we broke up made it hard. But I actually thought about it a lot less than I thought I would, and found that I have pretty much moved on, that feels good! :)

Moving on is very frustrating though! I am so sick of first dates! They are just awkward, and annoying, and not fun! I go on a lot of blind dates, and a lot of first dates, and it seems like it is hard to find someone that things "click" with... and then when I feel that way he doesn't seem to feel the same. Things are just never mutual, and I am sick of it!

I have really enjoyed the last couple of dates I went on, but this guy is one of those that I just can't "read" I can't tell wether he is interested or not, and I just don't know how to figure it out. I guess I just need to be patient and let things play out the way they are supposed to, but I want to know so that I don't have to go on anymore first dates lol!

But it is nice to have people to meet and things to do, I am grateful for that, and I hope that sometime soon all of this will be something that I can just look back on and be grateful it is over (all while cuddling with my sweetheart ;) I know that it is going to happen, but I am frustrated with it right now, I want to be done! :)

Anywho, that has been my fun, weird, frustrating week so far, and I just hope that things get better and better!

I'm so happy for you!

My very best friend got married last week!

I am so very happy for you Brittney and Zack, and so glad that you have found each other! It was so fun to go to her wedding and see the joy that was evident in both of them! I wish that I could have seen the actual marriage, that would have been great, but I was able to see them as they left the temple, it was just amazing to see that much happiness. :)

I miss Brittney a ton, and wish that I didn't have to do things alone, but seeing her that happy and knowing that she has found someone to spend eternity with makes it worth it!

Brittney and Zack are amazing friends who will have an amazing life together and I am so glad that I was able to share in their joy on that day and many to come!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! :)