Things on my mind :)

Someday everything is going to be ok. :) Things will work out the way they are supposed to, and my Heavenly Father is in control. Sometimes I worry so much about trying to make things happen, or make things work, but I often just need to step back and rely on him knowing that he sees the whole picture and he knows what is best and what will make me happy for eternity. I wish that I could get the answers, but I know someday that being patient and trusting will pay off. I have learned and changed so much through the things that I have been through in the last few months, and even though some of them have been really hard I know that they have made me a better person. Although I am sure I still have plenty to learn.

I had a great day yesterday, and I am grateful for days like that, they get me through the ones that are not so good. I hope that the good days will soon outnumber the bad. :)

I am excited for this week, I get to go see my family! I haven't seen my parents in quite a long time, so I am looking forward to spending some time with them and meeting my triplet nephews and niece! :) As well as seeing my sister and brother-in-law, and my other niece.

Perspective

Sometimes life needs to be put into perspective. Last night I was reading the Ensign, and I got to an article about the humanitarian work that the church does, and some of it's special programs. It made me so grateful to live where I do in a developed country where I do not have to worry about the basic needs of life.

I do not have to worry daily about if the water I am drinking is disease and parasite free, I always have food to eat, and I have a clean nice home to live in. Sometimes I forget that some people spend everyday of their lives trying to get just these simple things. They don't work their whole lives to save up for that huge home, or that fancy car, or anything else, they simply work every day to keep their children from starving, or dying from one of many other causes.

I am just so grateful to have the things that I do and to have been born into a wonderful family, in a great country. I have been very blessed. :)

Lake Powell!

This last weekend I got to go to Lake Powell! It was really nice to just get away and spend some time away from work and the troubles of life. I just got to enjoy the sun and water, the second of which I really love and don't get to enjoy nearly enough. This was the first time that I have ever been to Lake Powell, and it is an amazingly beautiful place! I was afraid to take my camera because we were camping on the beach and there was just too much sand, so I don't really have pictures, but just the chance to see the beautiful place that heavenly father created was just awesome! We even got to visit some indian ruins, and hike up to their houses and actually go inside them, it was so interesting, seeing stuff like that is one of my favorite things, it is so interesting to me, so I really enjoyed that part of the trip. I finally got a tan, and a very nice one if I do say so myself, I haven't been this dark in years and it feels great! I am just hoping that I can make it last and not let it fade away completely too soon. And yes I should take some self portraits while I've got it to show it off, we'll see if I find the time and ambition haha.

The trip overall was good, and I am glad that I went. It was about like the denver trip as far as planning and treatment from friends, but this time it was what I was expecting, and I decided to just enjoy and not worry, and I succeeded in that for the most part. :)

I also get to go on another trip in a couple of weeks, I am going to Iowa to visit my parents, sister and brother-in-law, and meet the triplets! I am excited to go and see them and spend some time with my parents, I haven't seen them in about 6 months, and I miss them. I am so grateful for my parents, they are so kind to me. When I call them it is so wonderful to be able to talk to people that like me, and want to hear what I have to say. It is pretty rare anymore that I get to do that, the people that I spend most of mine time with now, don't seem to really like me, they just tolerate my presence, or at least that is how they make me feel. So I am very grateful when I get to talk to my parents and other good friends and feel that they love me and want me to be there or want to hear what I have to say, it is a good feeling!

So thank you to those who make me feel loved and wanted! I hope you know who you are! I love you all :)