One of these days...

One of these days I just know things are going to change, things are going to get better, they just have to!

And in the meantime... Thank you to all those people in my life who stick around and let me know they care :) I have an awesome family who is so supportive of me and my decisions, and some great friends who are there when I need them. Thank you! :)

Pell Grant!!

This year I was very blessed to get a Pell Grant to pay for school! This is such a blessing, I will most likely have to quit my job when I start school, or go down to very few hours. I have been working nonstop for almost 9 years, and nearly full time for most of those years (even in High School) so this will be a HUGE change for me, and I have been worried about the money and how I would pay for everything. The grant is enough to pay for pretty much all of my tuition and books, I am so excited!!! It will be so nice to finally be starting the program that I want to go into and to have a light at the end of the long tunnel that is college. I have worked and saved over the last year to pay for school, and this really shows that when you do all you can to make something work Heavenly Father will make up the rest. I am SO GRATEFUL!!!!

My Hair...

So I hate my hair today, I wish that I could have beautiful long thick hair that I could braid, curl, and do anything that I wanted with! I have been watching some awesome tutorials on this blog today, and her hairstyles are so awesome and inspiring! However as I play with my hair and try these things it just doesn't work for me! Annoying! My hair will not seem to grow longer than it is now, and it is SO thin that many styles just don't look good because there is just not enough of it.

So I need tips and tricks :) I need to figure out how to make it grow, or how to cut it, or something that I can do! I am very glad that my hair is longer now, and I love that I can pull it back in a ponytail and such, so I do not want to cut it short again. But it is just annoying me right now!

So if you have any suggestions for me it would be awesome, I need them haha! Thanks :)

Hate the game!!

I am so frustrated with dating! I just hate all of the games, even if you are trying not to play games they are always there.

When you are interested it is a game of do I text him... if I text him will he text me back... if he doesn't what does that mean... will I drive him crazy if I text/call him too much... how much is too much... is he just busy or not interested... does he like me?!?!

And if you are not interested it is... how do I let him know I'm not interested without hurting him... do I just ignore his texts/calls or do I just tell him I not interested... do I go out with him again just to see even though I dread even the idea of spending another night with him... how do I make sure I don't seem too mean?!?!

I know a lot of this sounds childish, and let's face it, it is, but unfortunately this is what you have to go through in the dating world, and I think the childishness of it is part of what is so frustrating! There doesn't seem to be a way to just let people know what you are thinking. It reminds me of the movie "Hitch" when he is saying that simply telling someone that you like them just doesn't work... so annoying haha!

I have been struggling the last few weeks, and I am just so tired of this! Every time I get my hopes up my heart gets broken, and every time I am not interested I get ridiculed for it. I just want to be done with the games and this stage in my life! I just needed to vent a little, because dating is freaking frustrating!

I do know that it will be worth it in the end, I am just ready for that end to be here haha! ;)

Love Conference!!!

I LOVE General Conference!!! I am so grateful that some of my prayers could be answered in the wonderful talks. It is so nice to know that the frustrations and things that I am feeling (especially in my dating life) are recognized and addressed by the prophets! I have hope and faith that the right person was listening and that maybe his heart was touched and it will make a difference :)

And I am grateful for the opportunity to make some changes that will make me a better person.

My favorite talk was Elder Scott from this afternoon! I felt like he was speaking directly to me.

I just LOVE conference!!! :)

Answers... sometimes it is so frustrating to feel like I am not getting answers, or worse to feel like I am getting answers and then having my hopes dashed... life is just hard sometimes. I wish that I had someone who could give me advice, and that I could figure out how to make the right changes in my life to make it what I want it to be....

I just keep thinking... Something's gotta give!

Dreaming!

I have been having so much fun dreaming about my new house (that I don't even have yet haha). I know that the bank could still say no, and I might not get the house. But it is giving me something to think and dream about and I am loving it! I have been picking out paint colors and flooring, and thinking about how I am going to decorate! It is great! I hope that it works and I can make these dreams a reality, but if not I am still having fun right now ;)

Thanks to everyone who is willing to listen to me talk about all of it, I know it is probably not nearly as fun for you, but it is great to have the support! :)

Keep your fingers crossed for me! :)

24!!!

I just wanted to post and thank everyone who made my birthday special. :)

This year I was a little bit worried about my birthday, I know that sounds dumb, but I just wanted to have a good day, and not feel lonely. It turned out to be better than expected. On saturday my sweet grandma took me to lunch, it was nice to just talk and catch up, she is so sweet and kind to me. Then I went snowboarding with some friends! It was the first time I went this season, so I was really excited, my friends were great, and I just had a fun spending some time with them.

On sunday I woke up and was just being lazy, and then I looked out on the porch, and my wonderful friend Brittney had left a sign and note and DVD on the porch for me. It was just what I needed to know that someone remembered and really cared. :) (She always finds the best way to just make my day at the perfect time) I went to church and when I got home Brittney and Courtney came over and brought me a cute little cake and sang happy birthday, it was so sweet of them to take some time just to make my day better. I was able to go to my brother's for dinner and enjoy sometime with my nieces and everyone, I always like going to there home, it is a place that I always feel welcomed and loved. I was able to talk to my parents, they are always so great, and they just know how to cheer me up!

That night I went to our usual Sunday game night with my friends, they were all so nice, and it was a great way to end the day.

Thanks to everyone who made my birthday a good one, and for all the birthday wishes that I received from everyone!

P.S. I am still waiting to hear back about my offer on the house, but things seem to be going well, so I am excited about the possibilities coming. :)

House update!

This whole house idea is kind of becoming a reality! Crazy! I never would have guessed a couple of months ago that I would be seriously considering buying my own home, but things have kind of fallen into place to make it work.

I went to see the house that I posted about earlier, and it was cute, but definitely not for me, so I kept looking and thinking, and then I found this really cute townhouse. It is in a very good area and has all been updated and is completely move-in ready. When I went to see it I just felt really good about it and could totally imagine myself there. And the price was really hard to beat! So I decided to put in a low-ball offer to see what happens. (That's right I put in and offer on a house!) It is a Short Sale, so the process is probably going to take a while (I actually want it to because I would like to save up as much money as possible first).

So far the the seller has accepted the offer, but I will just have to wait to hear back from the bank, it could take 3 weeks, or it could take a year there is no way to know.

But for now I am having fun planning and thinking and trying to figure out my budget to make it work for me. The most fun part is thinking about how I am going to decorate and set the place up and everything, it is just so fun!!! :)

I hope that everything will work and feel right. We will see, it might not happen, but I am still enjoying dreaming, it is fun to have things to dream about! :)

(If anyone would like to be my awesome roommate in a sweet house let me know!)